A constant balancing act

****Stickers courtesy of Sofia****** 

 Today I wanted to give up. The stress of my day to day life was swallowing me whole. I had had enough of yelling at my children. I was done with their allergic reaction towards listening. My hose looks like it threw up on itself and no matter how many deep breaths I took, I couldn't shake the feeling that I was failing in every aspect of my life. The job of motherhood was taking it toll on my ability to be a good wife, a friend, a daughter. My children have run me ragged and they were winning. I called my mom in tears, begging for her to turn my naughty,apparently deaf children, into darling little angels, or I was going to jump off a building. Tears of exhaustion poured down my face. After reassuring words I hung up, washed my red puffy eyes, sent the children outside and I sat in the sun with my eyes closed and prayed.

 Here is what I came up with. I am Not a perfect mother and my children are not perfect children but no one is and that's ok. I don't respond to people screaming at me, so I should probably stop screaming at my children. I complain about how my days are long and all I do is yell, and I am quick to blame it on my my kids crazy behavior, but I have some blame in the attitude of my house. Our whole family is on a different page. The balance in our house is off and we are all fighting against each other instead of together. We're running ourselves in circles, and I am exhausted quite honestly.

 Parenting is hard, and somedays just plain ole sucks, but you don't give up or give in on the hard days. That's not fair to anyone. I teach my kids to keep trying no matter what, and it's about time to listen to my own advice. 

 And Son, instead of yelling you are going to have a permanent time out spot in the corner of your room so don't think you're off the hook kid-o - 

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Merry Christmas Friends

Merry Christmas from Us. Hope the next couple of days is full of family, laughter, wrapping paper, happy babes, and yummy food. 

Good Behavior with Sprinkles on Top

Today started out rough, as you can clearly see from the look on the Boys face. We barreled thru the crusty mood and went to Target where I didn't have to yell at anyone. 

Not even one time.

 See Virginia there is a Santa Clause!

I treated my well behaved babes to a batch of cake batter rice crispy treats. YUM. I've seen these floating around on Pinterest and decided today was the day. Super good, def worth trying.

I've been in a bit of a slump lately. Just a lot of things, decisions, weighing on my mind. I decided to move around all of our furniture to take my mind off of it. It always makes me feel better. The husband is home a little early tonight so I think we'll go look at Christmas lights.

Happy Thursday

Sincerely, Your Exhausted Mother

Dear Babes, 

I am two seconds away from taking you to the Dr to have your ears checked because you are the WORST listeners right now. You don't walk, you run, you scream instead of talk. You think its funny to hide my stuff and watch me freak out trying to find it. You can't leave each other alone for five seconds. If I hear "MOOOOMMMMM, Gavin/Sofia hit me" one more time it might just be the end of me. Sofias latest favorite phrase is "Thats Not FAIR". Tough cookies kid, you better get used to it. I say the same four things all flippin day...... Use kind words, don't touch each other, LISTEN, and unless someone is bleeding or unconscious STOP TATTLE TAILING! 

Sigh

Sofia is the sneakiest sassiest girl I know, and Gavin is mostly guilty by association. That may not be fair, but whatever, they pretty much even out in naughtiness by the end of the day. I would like one family outing where I don't have to threaten someone to get in the stroller, pull someone out of a clothes rack, leave someone crying on the floor in the cereal aisle because I won't open up a box of Lucky Charms. Just once I want to go out and not look like the crazy family with the Dragon Mom with monkeys for children. Sometimes I want to stop and throw a fit myself..... what do you think my kids would do if I freaked out crying  because I couldn't put my seat belt on the right way. 

His teacher says he is one of the best behaved in the class. She loves Gavin. Is it weird that when she told me he was such a good listener I wanted to punch her? I mean I LOVE his teacher so much but I am jealous some days that she gets all the good behavior and I am left with a tired whining boy that likes to fake burp his words and shoot his sister with Nerf darts. 

Bigger Sigh 

Oh parenthood, sometimes you are a big fat B word. Some days I just want to hang my hat and run away to a place with no Dora the Explorer or Chicken Nuggets or those stupid little Lego pieces that I step on every freggin day. 

But then I wouldn't have the sweet kisses and the " I love you mamas" or the babes that sneak in my bed in the mornings and wrap their arms around my neck and say "Good morning best friend". I would miss story time and our dance parties. I would miss being your mama. 

I love you to your bones babes, but lets try playing on the same team K.

****** SIDE NOTE***** 

In the middle of writing this post The Girl walked up and turned off my computer. Yup, she's a little butt head

Peace On Earth And Good Will Towards Men

The Boy had his first Christmas Performance at school and it was ADORABLE! He was an angel, which is kind of funny considering he has been anything but lately, and wasn't super excited about his costume because it looked like a "dress". I thought he looked darling. 

 They sang songs and they all looked so CUTE! 

I can add this to one more thing I love about the Holidays 

A New Guilty Pleasure

I am a sucker for Design Blogs, LifeStyle Blogs, Food Blogs. I just can't get enough! Well I have a new one for you. One of my high school friends has started a new blog and it's fantastic! She is so talented and fun, and she is having a GIVE-A-WAY a day till Christmas! Go check her out now, I'm sure you'll be as hooked as I am !

                         Mindy Gayer.com

Moms Survival Tip #127

When my kids are about to be banished to live outside forever because they are driving so crazy I could cry I make them take a bath. Its a guaranteed twenty minutes of calm, quiet, stress free time of my day. Invest in some cheap $4.00 tub crayons and you've just added another ten minutes. BLISS 

They have been in the bath twice already today. Little monsters

Whatcha Been Up To?

December is crazy busy so far. I have been neglecting this little
blog and I have A TON of pictures that need to be uploaded from my big camera. Not to mention an entire post about the Sullivan Wedding and a super fun Wedding Dress Shopping day. As soon as I have five seconds to actually sit at my computer I'm on it. For now, here are pics from the last two weeks from my phone.

****Side note*** tomorrow we're taking the babes to get our first real Christmas tree! I'm pretty excited about this!

My mama's 50th Birthday!


Gavin's amazing teacher had a birthday right before Thanksgiving so we made her a little something to let her know we love her.


The Hubs and I had a late night date night Christmas shopping


Gavin's soccer season ended and we partied it up at Chuck E Cheese and I've decided that place is the most disgusting germ infested place ever. Blah!


I scored this amazing entertainment console from Ikea marked down to $39 from $199! Just need to re paint it.


Had some pretty sweet Goodwill finds!


Played with our new glow in the dark light sabers


My mama passed the first level of tests to become a salmonier. Woop woop


Had a much needed Moms night out


A little his and hers hot chocolate action



There you have it. There was also a splinter in the foot incident that has left Gavin crippled as far as he is concerned. Agghh. This was such an over dramatic nightmare, and you better believe he went to school limping. Give that boy an Academy Award!

So here's to a crazy schedule for the rest of the month!







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